Behind the Blood and Obsession: My Writing Process

People often ask me what it’s like to write reverse harem dark romance filled with demons, cursed royalty, morally gray soulmates, and the kind of love that leaves scars.

The truth?
It’s a little messy. A little obsessive. And entirely sacred.

Writing, for me, is not just storytelling—it’s a devotion. A ritual. A way to exorcise the things I feel too deeply and too sharply. Every book I write is soaked in emotion, steeped in research, and built from the question: What happens when power meets vulnerability—and refuses to let go?

Let me show you how it all begins.

I Write What Haunts Me

My books aren’t born from trends. They’re born from obsessions. A myth that won’t leave me alone. A trope that I want to burn down and rebuild from the ashes. A character who whispers their broken backstory into my skull until I have no choice but to write it down.

Academy of the Devil started this way. I wanted to write about Hell—not as a place of punishment, but as a place of power. A kingdom where the rules don’t apply and the dangerous are divine. But more than that, I wanted to explore what it means to be feared, desired, and underestimated at once—as a girl in a world of devils.

My main character is epileptic, like me. Her strength isn’t supernatural—it’s internal. She survives not because she’s the most powerful, but because she refuses to fold. That story demanded everything from me emotionally—and gave me back something I didn’t know I’d lost.

I Research Obsessively

I don’t write loosely inspired stories. I study. Whether it’s mythology, demonology, mecha construction, ancient blood rituals, or metaphysical soul theory, I dive deep—because the darker the world, the more real it has to feel.

For Chimera Academy, I spent weeks mapping hybrid mythological monsters to combat machines. I researched the structure of the universe and planetary systems, looked into the nature of black holes, and cross-referenced ancient Greek monster myths with modern robotics theories. All so I could write give my chimeras life, through tachyons. I’m going to go ahead and admit it didn’t turn out as scientific as I’d have liked – but it’s mine.

For The Accursed Saga, I build a soul-binding ritual that felt both original and ancient. And once I reached Eternal Damnation, I went even deeper—all the way into ancient mythology. Because when a character says “I loved you in another life,” I want you to believe it.

I Write With My Whole Chest

I don't believe in emotional detachment while drafting. I cry, I ache, I feel everything with my characters. When my MCs beg not to be chosen, when the cruel one softens for the first time, when someone dies, I stop breathing with them.

In Watcher Academy, when the female lead faces her killer from a past life, I was shaking while writing it. The grief, the fury, the confusion—none of that was fabricated. I was Delilah, aching with the knowledge that I’d been robbed of my life. And I wanted to turn on my favorite character ever, the heroine of the Academy of the Devil, Alyssa.

I don’t shy away from emotional mess. I lean into it. Because that’s where the best romance lives—not in perfection, but in ruin.

Every Book Is a Mirror

Writing dark romance doesn’t mean I’m writing about evil. It means I’m writing about transformation.

I want my characters to suffer—not for the sake of pain, but because I believe pain reveals truth. Every harem I write is built on the idea that love isn’t easy. That intimacy is forged in trials. That power and vulnerability don’t cancel each other out—they feed each other.

When I wrote The Warden’s Wolf, it wasn’t just about enemies falling in love in a prison—it was about a woman learning to reclaim control in a world that’s taken everything from her. It was about power dynamics, submission, rebellion, and need. It was about being seen in the darkest place imaginable.

That’s what I write. Not fantasy for escapism—but fantasy as a reckoning.

I Don’t Always Write Fast. I Always Write True.

Some stories take months. Some take years. Others may take less, if the muse is particularly loud. Sometimes, when I write series, I used to write obsessively and not sleep nights - but always, always, it came from the heart.

When I write, I want every line to mean something. Every metaphor, every power shift, every line of dialogue—it’s there to say: You are not alone in your chaos. I see you. I write for you.

And when I’m finished?

I want readers to feel ruined, rebuilt, and a little in love with something they probably shouldn’t be.

That’s the point.
That’s why I do this.

I Write For You

I remember clearly that the happiest I've ever felt - other than the day of my marriage, of course - was when a reader told me they saw their own suffering in my writing, that they felt seen.

There's something so powerful in that, the knowledge that you brought someone to tears, but it gave them catharsis. There's no greater satisfaction for a writer than to achieve that.

For me, in that instance, it was particularly important, because it was an epileptic reader who shared Alyssa's experiences. But it is just as valid for other readers, for other titles. I write because I feel, and because you do.

If You’ve Ever Felt Too Much…

My books are for you.
The soft ones hiding claws. The angry ones looking for softness. The readers who don’t want perfect love stories—they want ones that burn.

If you’ve never read my work, start here:

• Academy of the Devil – For lovers of demons, defiance, and the girl who won’t stay quiet.

• The Accursed Saga – If you crave reincarnation, blood oaths, and falling for six men you probably shouldn’t trust.

• The Warden’s Wolf – Omegaverse. Prison. Bite marks and betrayal.

• Watcher Academy – For anyone who’s ever been betrayed, but overcame it.

Until then—
Embrace the temptation.
—Eva Brandt